Okay, not everything. I stil haven't picked out a roomate and bought all the neessary items to live on my own, but I have at least chosen to attend and made a deposit to Hanover College. I've earned as much money as I could up to this point for scholarships, and it's only a matter of time before I sign up for classes.
While I may be more than ready to leave high school, I'm terrified of the thought of being on my own. I can remember being a kindergartner like it was only a couple days ago. In a few months, I'll be two hours away from my family, friends and everything that I've grown up around. The weather is probably going to be cooler, and I can't rely on my mom to help me if I don't understand my chemistry homework.
I don't like the idea of just up and leaving home as if it were no big deal. I wish students had the choice of staying for another year to prepare themselves to leave. I mean, I'm sure that is an option, but it's frowned upon in my family. Plus, you would get a late start in college and might not be eligible for some money towards higher education down the road.
My dad tells me that no matter what, I'm going to be sad for at least the first month. I know I'm moving back to Lexington the first chance I get after college, but I also know I probably won't want to live in my parent's house again. It's all just very confusing and frustrating trying to figure out a plan for the rest of your life.
And I haven't even thought about marriage or kids. Ugh.
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